Graduated, Got Work and Possibly be out of Job

Hi! I am back here on WordPress. I am planning to delete this site but hesitated for a bit so I decided to write about what is going on here in Japan.

Because of the pandemic, our company, who heavily relies to foreign students have been severely affected. No students can enter Japan because of the flight ban. As of today, almost 100 countries are not allowed to enter Japan. Even those with permanent residence card.

Since no students can study right now, our company needs to reduce the cost of the expenses since we will not be receiving commission payment from schools for a long time. Being a permanent employee, I was asked to work from home and reduced my working hours. Since April, I am only getting 50% of my supposedly salary. April was also the start of my “full time” status with the company. With that being said, yes I haven’t even received a full time salary and yet I am about to get lesser payment than when I was a part time employee. Truly, sometimes life is fucking joke. I studied diligently, did not work more than the allowed hours so I can convert my visa to work visa which I successfully did only to end up working on drastically reduced hours. How cruel life is?

I am looking for another opportunity (with permission from my company) but with the situation now, I am just not sure if I can find a job until December. I cannot live with 50% pay to be honest.

I just need to let these all out before I go crazy. Sometimes I regret not having a best friend because I don’t have anyone to talk to in times like this. I also regret not having a husband or a kid or getting married early because maybe, if I have my own family, I would just be okay living my life in Philippines and not think of running away from everyone. I wonder what life would be if I chose a different path.

If I will be given a chance to work in another company here, I would like to stay for another 2-3 years until my Japanese has improved to a native level. If not, I would just have to make the most of my remaining months then. I am still looking forward to Spring of 2021, to the Olympics of 2021, and better days ahead. To whoever is finding the cure for this virus, may God bless you. I thank you for all your hard work and for saving us.

FinalIy! I am graduating in language school in Japan!

After one and a half year, finally I am graduating! It has been a crazy ride but it was all worth it. There were ups and downs but as graduation comes closer, I just want to breathe a sigh of relief.

2 years ago when I went to Japan, I risked everything I had back then. A good paying career, an “easy” life and my friends and family. I accepted the fact that I will be alone on this journey. The first 6 months were the hardest for me. I was living on this share house with inconsiderate housemates who do their laundry at 1AM in the morning (my room is beside the laundry area). My then place was 15 minutes away from the station so I need to be walking by 5:40 so I can catch the train at 6-6:15ish and arrive in the bus terminal in Shinagawa by 8AM. I prefer to be early because Japan train schedules in the morning can get unpredictable.

My first work in Japan was with Yamato transport as a luggage sorter. I worked in warehouse because less Japanese is required. The problem with working in warehouse is, it’s an open warehouse. It was winter season and it was so cold. I was standing for 5 hours straight and can’t even have a pee break because everyone is busy. After a month I decided to end my job with them as I was getting sick. My foot started to hurt as well as my lower back. Because of that, I had to go to therapy because I couldn’t walk properly.

My second job was with Motivist Japan. Yes, my school agent decided to hire me as I can communicate in English and they wanted me to handle their English market. My school agent advised me to move from my share house to a decent apartment in Chiba since Motivist is located in Makuhari, Chiba. Chiba is one hour away from Shinjuku. The rent is cheaper compared to Tokyo so basically I will just pay the same rent plus my utilities but I will have my own place.

So by January 2019, I moved to this new prefecture. Registered my address to the city hall and it was one of the best decision I made. I usually work in the morning in the Motivist office but the hours were not enough to cover my expenses so I decided to work in a Tonkatsu-ya in Makuharihongo at night. Working in Tonkatsu-ya opened my eyes to a new perspective in life. I washed dishes, I cleaned toilet, I cleaned tables, served tea and made miso soup. I have never done any of this when I was in Philippines. I know it was a downgrade of what I was doing before but I enjoyed it. It is the reality of life. The staff in Tonkatsu-ya are Japanese, Chinese, Taiwanese and Vietnamese. I was the first Filipino to work there. But then after two months, I needed to leave. The store wanted me to work in different branches which I cannot do because that would mean carrying my uniform and shoes everyday on top of the books for the school. My back was not yet ready for it so after 2 months, I left. Also, the Vietnamese girl there was pissing me off so it’s better I leave before I lose my patience.

With some luck on my side, I was asked to work at night in Motivist Japan. I was so thankful because that would mean I will be SITTING in a chair in an OFFICE. I don’t need to wash dishes or clean toilets. Fast forward to today, I am still a part time worker in Motivist Japan. We are about to move office to Kaihim Makuhari which is a little far from my place but hey I can take a bus now! I had helped students like me wanting to study in Japan from various countries. Every time I have a student wanting to study in Japan, it always take me back to my humble beginnings.

I had the best teachers in school, though I cannot say the same for my classmates, I learned to zone out the negative and focus on positive instead. I passed my N3 exam and now I am preparing for N2. I can speak in Japanese (though not yet fluent) but I will get there.

Lord, if you read blogs, please know I am very thankful with what you have given me. I know it will get harder from here but I know you and my uncle will be watching over me. I made bad decisions sometimes, but I try to face them and correct them. Please do watch over my health because 1 year and a half of work and study made me a bit weary.

Here are some of my snapshots from 2018 and 2019:

From 17 students, we are down to 10