Graduated, Got Work and Possibly be out of Job

Hi! I am back here on WordPress. I am planning to delete this site but hesitated for a bit so I decided to write about what is going on here in Japan.

Because of the pandemic, our company, who heavily relies to foreign students have been severely affected. No students can enter Japan because of the flight ban. As of today, almost 100 countries are not allowed to enter Japan. Even those with permanent residence card.

Since no students can study right now, our company needs to reduce the cost of the expenses since we will not be receiving commission payment from schools for a long time. Being a permanent employee, I was asked to work from home and reduced my working hours. Since April, I am only getting 50% of my supposedly salary. April was also the start of my “full time” status with the company. With that being said, yes I haven’t even received a full time salary and yet I am about to get lesser payment than when I was a part time employee. Truly, sometimes life is fucking joke. I studied diligently, did not work more than the allowed hours so I can convert my visa to work visa which I successfully did only to end up working on drastically reduced hours. How cruel life is?

I am looking for another opportunity (with permission from my company) but with the situation now, I am just not sure if I can find a job until December. I cannot live with 50% pay to be honest.

I just need to let these all out before I go crazy. Sometimes I regret not having a best friend because I don’t have anyone to talk to in times like this. I also regret not having a husband or a kid or getting married early because maybe, if I have my own family, I would just be okay living my life in Philippines and not think of running away from everyone. I wonder what life would be if I chose a different path.

If I will be given a chance to work in another company here, I would like to stay for another 2-3 years until my Japanese has improved to a native level. If not, I would just have to make the most of my remaining months then. I am still looking forward to Spring of 2021, to the Olympics of 2021, and better days ahead. To whoever is finding the cure for this virus, may God bless you. I thank you for all your hard work and for saving us.

How is the life in Japan as a student?

Studying in Japan gave me so many lessons in life and I felt even more mature as a person.

First, life is not easy. Yes, I’ve been here so many times. But as the day goes by, the place you once considered beautiful will no longer attract you. I visited Disney Sea again for the second time as part of our filed trip and guess what? I thought the whole trip was boring. I went home around 3PM.

I have never been a store clerk in Philippines but here, I am now on my second job as a store clerk. I am not very good in shouting “irrashaimase” or “arigatou gozaimasu” to customer so I need to put an extra effort to raise my voice.

Japan is a fast paced country and everyone is always tired. You can even feel it inside the train. Part time worker and contractors are paid by the hour so every hour counts. That means working on weekends is normal.

Even if you work 7 days a week, you will feel what you earn is not enough. I pay 40,000 yen monthly for my place and 26,000 yen for my monthly pass. My phone bill is 4,000 yen monthly. This means I need to earn 70,000 monthly to cover for my bills and 20,000 for my food. Working 26 hours a week will give me around 100,000 yen monthly. I only have 10,000 left to pay for other expenses like water or electricity. If I fail to work lets say for just a day, I will be short of money and this is the reality of living here.

I love studying Japanese. Everyday I look forward to learn. However there are days that I feel like I am not improving at all. Maybe I am overthinking or maybe I have high expectation set to myself.

Is it worth it? It’s a solid yes. I met new friends. I gained some and lose some. I now know who will stay with me even if I am on the lowest of the low. I learned to let go of some things I used to have and adjust to what I can afford. I find ways to earn extra income, compare store prices utilise phone apps to get discounts. I am more cautious now on where to spend my money.

Will I still do it over again if I can turn back the time? Absolutely. I know I am on the right track. I just need to maintain my composure and passion. I need to remind myself that this time I am not here to travel but to master the language. If I succeed in doing that, more opportunities will open. May God guide me on the right track.